Luke stared. Then the words tumbled out of his mouth before he could reconsider – everything he’d been stewing over since Rogue Squadron had returned to the Independence.
“I did break my promise. I’m sorry. I refused to let you or Salm’s Y-wing crews die. I would make the same decision again.” He took another breath. “If that means you want to transfer to the Liberty, I’ll sign the papers. I’m sorry.”
Mara chewed for several moments, letting silence hang until she swallowed. “You’re an idiot.” The words carried no heat. “Can I come in?”
Luke backed away from the door, back across his room to the desk. He sat down in the chair, leaving nothing but open space between Mara and the door.
The door slid shut behind her, and she moved over and flopped down to sit on his bunk, curling her legs underneath her. She took another bite of the ration bar, chewing slowly. “What did you see?”
That was not what Luke had expected. The room tilted a bit, and he felt both exhausted and off-balance. “What did I see?”
“That’s what I asked, Skywalker.” Her voice sounded wrong; there was neither sarcasm nor anger, just an unbroken flatness.
He hesitated for a moment, trying to marshal his thoughts and recollections. “I…you…were a child. Very young. Maybe drugged. It was raining. There were stormtroopers trying to take you in. A Jedi intervened and fought the stormtroopers. She called herself Fulcrum.”
“She wasn’t a Jedi,” Mara said around a mouthful of ration bar.
“What?”
“She wasn’t a Jedi.”
“Oh.”
“What else?” she asked.
Luke shook his head. “Most of it was sensation. Fear. The smell of rain and ozone. Blood. And then we were back in our X-wings.”
Mara took the final bite of ration bar and crumpled the wrapper in her hand, looking around wearily for a trash receptacle. “And in each other’s heads.”
“Yes.” He didn’t try to soften it. “I reached for you in the Force when you stopped responding. When I found you, it felt like you were drowning. All I knew how to do was reach, and I tried to pull you back.”
“And then I grabbed onto you,” she said.
He could only nod.
She rubbed her eyes slowly. “Her name was Ahsoka Tano. She stole me away from the Empire and raised me for eight years while running a resistance network with Senator Bail Organa. Kept me out of sight, away from the Empire’s Jedi hunters.”
Luke listened.
“She kept secrets. Taught me how to keep the Force locked away so the Inquisitors wouldn’t find me.” A small, bitter smile twisted her lips, and for the first time, emotion crept into her voice. “She and Kanan argued about it, after I met him. She started to teach me, right before Vader caught up with us and killed her. She made sure I escaped.”
“The lightsaber,” Luke risked.
Mara nodded, her eyes focused on something Luke couldn’t see. “I should have gotten rid of it. But it’s the last thing I have of her.”
“And Gerrard Five was where you met her?” he asked.
“I think so. I didn’t remember until we were over Harazod, and then I was five years old again. Until you pulled me out.” She looked up, her eyes refocusing on Luke for the first time since she had sat down on the bunk. “Something about the planet bothered me when we briefed. I thought it would be fine.” She laughed, a humorless chuckle. “Until it wasn’t and I almost got myself and those bomber crews killed.”
“So you didn’t know.” Luke’s words were a statement, not a question.
“Not in any useful way. Not until I almost died.” She met his gaze. “I’m sorry. I kriffed up. I put you in that spot. I should have aborted before we got to the city. I knew something was wrong and I thought it would be okay.” The humorless laugh reappeared. “Now you’re stuck with what was in my head, too.”
“That’s not what I’m worried about.”
“No, it’s not,” Mara said, and there was an eerie certainty in it. “You’re worried about me. Even after I almost got seven people killed.” She closed her eyes. “I was in your head, too.”
“I know you were.” He tried a self-deprecating joke. “Wedge would probably tell you there was plenty of extra room in there, because I’m not using most of it.”
She snorted.
“Why are you here, Mara?” he asked, his voice soft.
“Because I don’t know what else to do.” Her voice cracked. “I don’t…I’ve never…I move forward. And today the one place that’s always been good is where I broke.”
Luke tried to find an answer. Mara didn’t wait.
“And I should be running right now. You saw me. I should have already been on a shuttle out of here, to anywhere else. Maybe to the Liberty. Kriff, Skywalker, I’m so tired and everything is broken.”
He remembered, vividly, his impression of the broken moon. “You’re still here,” he said gently. “Rogue Squadron is still here. We survived. You don’t have to leave if you don’t want to, Mara.”
“Like you and Antilles are going to let me back in a cockpit after what happened today.”
“Tomorrow, no. After you’ve actually rested and recovered and we figure out a less catastrophic way to handle an abort? Why not?” Luke waited until Mara met his gaze again. “Nobody died. The person suffering most from the consequences right now is you.”
“And you.”
Luke chose to ignore the truth of her comment. “Yes, we’ll want to make sure you’re safe before we launch another mission. But if you want to stay, you’re staying.”
Mara slumped. “It’s not fair,” she murmured.
“What’s not fair?” he asked.
“Three kilometers of battleship. And this is the only place that feels safe on the whole kriffing ship.”
“Here?”
“With you.” She yawned, and her eyes closed. “My quarters. Tried to rebuild my walls. Felt like a coffin. But here it’s safe.”
Mara rolled over and blinked, the dimly lit room slowly coming back into focus. Her chronometer was missing. What time is it? And what happened to my chrono?
It took her a good ten seconds before she realized she wasn’t in her own quarters.
Oh. Oh, kriff. Memories flooded back. These are Skywalker’s quarters. Kriff me. She looked down at herself. She was covered with a light blanket; underneath, she was still wearing the flight suit from the Gerrard Five mission. Kriff me, I fell asleep in Skywalker’s quarters.
She sat bolt upright and looked around. Kriff me, I’ll never live this down.
The door hissed open and Luke Skywalker entered carrying two mugs.
“Good morning,” he said, his voice infuriatingly calm. “I’m glad you’re awake.”
“What time is it?” Mara asked, her voice hoarse.
“Just after twelve hundred,” he told her, handing her one of the mugs. “You slept about nine hours.”
“I thought you said it was morning.”
“Han likes to say any time you wake up it’s morning.”
Mara accepted the mug. Caf. She took a sip. Good caf. She looked at him suspiciously. “Where’d this come from?”
“Officers’ galley,” Luke supplied. “Wedge and I both have access to it, but it’s a bit of a walk. How are you doing?”
She took a moment before answering, turning her own thoughts inward. Physically, she felt sticky and longed for a good hot shower and a change of clothes. Mentally, she still felt raw and exposed, but it wasn’t the overwhelming, all-consuming ache that had driven her out of her quarters during the night. Gerrard Five felt distant, light-years away, and the vivid memories had begun to fade into something more normal.
“Better,” she said at last after another sip of caf. “What happened last night?”
“After we talked? You fell asleep. The way you looked when you came here, I decided to just let you rest.”
Mara’s eyes narrowed. “Where did you sleep?”
“Chair.” He turned his head one way, then the other, his neck cracking. “I’m a bit stiff, but I’m fine.”
“Stupid.”
“It’s better than the floor.”
“How would you…you know what, I’d rather not know.”
Luke smiled at that.
“I should…I should go,” Mara said, rising to her feet with the caf mug still in hand and letting the blanket slip off her.
He stepped away from the door, giving her room to leave. “Get yourself cleaned up,” he said softly. “Go see the med droid to make sure there’s nothing wrong. Eat.”
For the first time, more thoughts began crashing into her from the day before. “Hobbie? Valent?”
“Hobbie’s in a bacta dunk. Kit took some transparisteel shrapnel, but he’ll be okay. We got hammered pretty hard, but no one died.”
Mara hesitated, torn between wanting to say more and fleeing.
Luke offered her a reassuring smile. “Most of the Rogues are eating right now. No one’s going to see you.”
She bit her lip. “Thanks,” she mumbled before fleeing out the door, back to her own quarters.
The interrogation room was brightly lit, but the adjoining observation room was much more pleasantly dim.
Wedge folded his arms, glanced over at Tycho Celchu, then returned his attention to the interrogation room.
Kasan Moor was dressed in a simple grey jumpsuit reminiscent of the flight suits used by both Imperial and Rebel pilots, though this particular outfit had both short arm and leg covering, leaving plenty of skin exposed on her limbs. She was seated at the unadorned table in the middle of the room opposite General Rieekan.
The jumpsuit leaves skin exposed so it doesn’t interfere with restraints, Wedge observed. Even if she’s not wearing any.
Rieekan studied his datapad for a moment, then looked up at Kasan. “Let’s start from the top. Where are you from?”
“I’ve told you all of this before,” Kasan reminded him.
“Humor me.”
Ask the same questions to check whether the answers are consistent, Wedge observed. Or whether they’re too consistent, which would mean rehearsed.
Kasan cleared her throat. “I grew up in Crevasse City on Alderaan. I’m Alderaanian both by birthplace and by blood.”
“How old are you?”
“Twenty-three standard years. I was born during the Clone Wars.”
Rieekan nodded. “Why did you join the Imperial TIE Corps?”
“Foolishness.” Kasan leaned back in her chair. “My parents believed in the dream of galaxy-wide peace. They held very dearly to the classic ideals of Alderaan, including disarmament and political change by peaceful protest and democratic processes. I was sixteen standard years old when I decided I knew better than they did. I studied history in school and could see that peace was by no means assured. Even at the height of the Republic, there were plenty of bad things happening outside Republic jurisdiction. So I enrolled in the Imperial Academy without their permission because I knew better.”
“And after graduation, you entered Imperial service?”
“I tested very well for piloting,” she agreed. “The Empire trained me to fly anything from a fighter to a corvette. Coming from a prestigious Core world, I got sent to Coruscant. I passed through the Coruscanti Pilot Institute and then finished at Carida. From there, I entered straight into the service, yes.”
“What units did you serve with?”
“My first year was with the Two-Oh-Fourth Wing, fifth squadron. We spent the entire year chasing pirates and securing trade lanes. I made ace for the first time by killing Cloakshapes in the Mid Rim.” She shook her head. “It was the sort of campaign that made it easy to be an Imperial loyalist. We were doing good work, very good work, against the sort of scum that preyed on individual traders and freight-haulers. Nobody we hunted down was very competent, so our losses were minimal.”
“And at the end of your first tour?” Rieekan asked.
“I was offered a slot with the One-Twenty-Eighth Group, first squadron. The Two-Oh-Fourth wasn’t happy to lose me, but the One-Twenty-Eighth was a more prestigious posting and there was zero chance of me passing it up.” She pursed her lips. “I did two tours with the One-Twenty-Eighth, handling everything from anti-piracy duty to engaging resistance cells to putting down Imperial dissidents. Toward the end of my third tour as a TIE pilot, I was offered command of the group; I had impressed plenty of the right people. I took command a month before the Emperor dissolved the Senate and destroyed Alderaan.”
Rieekan let silence hang as he made notes on his datapad.
Wedge glanced over at Tycho. “Thoughts?”
“Nothing implausible,” the other man said slowly. “Imperial service wasn’t a popular choice for kids growing up on Alderaan, but some of us chose it anyway. I thought I could help reform the Empire from the inside, and I knew a few others who joined for the same reason. But joining as an act of rebellion against her parents?” Tycho offered a small smile. “I knew a few cadets like that, though none of them were Alderaanian. Adolescents thinking they know better than their parents isn’t a universal constant, but it’s closer than most.”
Rieekan studied her for a moment. “What happened immediately after the destruction of Alderaan?”
“Confusion,” Kasan said. “That’s the best way I can describe it. There were a lot of stories about what happened to Alderaan, and none of them really made sense.”
“What sort of stories?”
“Rumors that the Rebellion had built a superweapon and destroyed Alderaan, for one. That it was meant to be a terror weapon to break the Emperor’s rule.” She snorted. “That one never made sense, because half the TIE Corps thought Alderaan was too friendly with the Rebels. Bail Organa’s reputation wasn’t exactly Imperial loyalist. But there were rumors that it was an accident of some sort, but the details were different depending on who told the story. Mining accident, or ancient weapon from one of the old pre-Republic wars, or some Jedi sorcery plot from survivors of the Clone Wars. Most of us figured out pretty quickly that the Death Star was an Imperial superweapon, though why Tarkin had used it to blow up Alderaan in particular was an open question. No matter what the truth was at that point, I couldn’t stay in Imperial service. Not anymore.”
“After the destruction of Alderaan, you stayed in Imperial service,” Rieekan said. “It’s been half a year. Why defect now? Why not months ago, right after it happened?”
“Because this was the first time I could survive it.”
“Explain.”
Kasan leaned forward in her chair. “After the Death Star destroyed our world, my first thought was getting out of the service, General,” she said slowly. “So I started making plans. Or tried to. It wasn’t until I started looking for the seams that I realized just how tightly built my cage was. The One-Twenty-Eighth was an elite, highly-decorated fighter group: three squadrons of the best, most loyal TIE pilots ever produced by Imperial training. But until I started looking, I thought loyalty was assumed. Then I started trying to plan my exit, and discovered loyalty was enforced.” She offered a small smile. “The Imperial Security Bureau kept a close eye on us, and I’d never noticed because I had never had a reason to notice.” She swallowed. “I tried having quiet conversations with some of the pilots under my command and discovered, rather quickly, that my assumption of Imperial loyalty hadn’t been unwarranted. But the ISB didn’t share my assumptions.”
Rieekan arched an eyebrow and waited.
“The One-Twenty-Eighth was moved to Moff Seerdon’s chain of authority shortly after I took command. He used us to put down several Rebel cells.” She shook her head. “They weren’t battles. They were massacres.”
“So you chose to keep serving.”
“I chose to live. I didn’t want to kill any more Rebels, General. But if I’d defied orders, I’d have been arrested, charged with treason, and executed. And the same Rebels would have died anyway.” She chewed her lip. “I know it’s horrible. I’m not claiming I have clean hands. But it’s how I justified it to myself.”
“What changed?” Rieekan asked.
“Gerrard Five.” She shook her head. “Moff Seerdon didn’t trust Governor Dannal. He transferred two squadrons of the One-Twenty-Eighth to Gerrard Five to oversee the looting and to make sure Dannal didn’t try to disappear with the goods. And then your star cruiser showed up in orbit and dropped that X-wing squadron on us.” She shuddered. “I’ve flown TIEs for over three years. That was the very first time I thought we might lose a battle.”
“So you defected to save your life?”
“I defected because it was the first time I thought I could survive it,” she repeated. “General, if I had tried to walk away from the One-Twenty-Eighth while on shore leave, an ISB agent would probably have shot me. If I had tried doing it mid-battle while tangling with Rebels before that fight, my own wingmen would’ve killed me. Over Gerrard Five I was in the fight of my life with two Rebel X-wings that I didn’t particularly want to kill and watched the rest of their squadron start to take apart my group. If I wanted to defect and survive, I finally had an opportunity. So I took it.”
“According to Captain Antilles’ report, you killed your own wingmen.”
Kasan grimaced. “Yes.”
“Why?”
“Necessity.” She shook her head. “If I left them at my back, they’d have killed me. And I had to do something to show your squadrons that I was serious.”
“Serious enough to kill your own people.”
Kasan looked down. “They weren’t my people. Not anymore. Not after Alderaan.” She looked back up at Rieekan. “General, you have every reason to doubt me. I don’t know if I’ll ever sit in a cockpit again. But I’ll take any job the Alliance will give me if it means I’m not fighting for the Empire anymore.”
Rieekan pushed himself back from the table and stood. “That’s enough for now, Captain Moor. I’ll have someone bring you something to eat, and we’ll resume in an hour.”
Kasan nodded.
Wedge studied her as she slumped in her chair after the door hissed shut. I don’t know if she’s a good actor or genuine. I know which I’d rather believe. He glanced over at Tycho. “Any more thoughts?”
“Vaping her wingmen was cold,” Tycho commented. “I don’t disagree that they would have shot her down, if they knew she was trying to jump the fence.” He bit his lip. “But the Empire would happily sacrifice a couple of TIE pilots to insert a loyalist into the Rebellion. Imperial Intelligence wouldn’t even blink at it.”
“But she’s Alderaanian,” Wedge pointed out.
“Which would make the cover more believable,” Tycho replied dully. “I’m sure there are Alderaanians serving the Empire right now who will stay in Imperial grey until they die or the Empire is dissolved, because they believe they’re serving a just cause.”
“And which one is Kasan? Who is she loyal to?”
“I wish I knew.”